Just Some Ramblings About What’s Stressing Me Out

 Finances mostly. OCD is making me obsess over things. Like stressing over being stressed. It’s a vicious circle.


I want to replace my Dad's medals and ribbons. I'm stressing over that because it's so overwhelming. I don't have all of the information necessary. I need help with that. I at least know where to ask for help. So there's that. Just a matter of how much help can they give me. 


I don't know when (if?) I'm getting my stimulus check. The IRS and SSA have been fucking over 30,000,000 million of us. My husband’s and son’s checks are in the mail, so there's that. Could arrive any day now.


I want to get out of debt. I want to pay off <redacted> completely. I need this check badly. This stresses me out tremendously.


Plus there's stuff that I don't "need" but I really want. Bastet perfume. Dragon Oracle deck. Witchy books. I don't think I'll be able to get the tattoo that I want. I want to get back into Magic: The Gathering. I want the Dinosaur Cat tokens. They're adorable! I wouldn't mind getting back into Yu-Gi-Oh too.


Waiting on maintenance to start on their very long list of issues in our apartment is stressing me too. The sinks, the fan over the stove, the lights. Etc etc.


I want to set up an altar. I have beautiful things to put on it. I just hope Sandra doesn't get nosey. But I think setting up my altar will help

me get back into things. I feel like an imposter far too often. Hiero helps with this a lot. I've gotten so much support there. Twitter helps a lot too. Again, support.

Speaking of support, I’m getting support from people on Twitter concerning my writer’s block. I’m positive it’s tied to my depression. But other people believing me and sending me light, love and blessings helps me more than I can say.

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