The Raven's Song

 I've always been at a loss as what to offer Thoth, but now I think I have a good idea of what to offer Him: my ttrpg character. Someone told me that He likes to be included in things, and one of my greatest joys is playing ttrpgs such as Dungeons & Dragons or Palladium. So why not dedicate my character to Him? It's something that would definitely be coming from my heart. I put a lot of myself, or rather, a lot of my ideal self, into this character. Her name is Lilith Angelica Addams, aka Lily aka Lily-Angel. I picked this name because many years ago I wanted to change my name to Lilith Angelica, and my nickname used to be Lily. As for the Addams surname... I've always felt like I should be part of the Addams Family. I've fictionalized my own history for her story. (As a side note here, we're using the Palladium system for this campaign.) Lily is a teenager who is just discovering that she is a Witch. I really think this campaign will be a lot of fun, if we can ...

 I've been having strange feelings today and I don't know what to make of them. It's all because of a dream I had and not knowing what it may have been trying to tell me. Let me preface this by saying that my Dad died many years ago. My mom died 10 years before him, and I have no siblings. My Dad was everything to me. I was completely devastated when he passed, as I was the one to find him in the backyard.  In my dream, Dad had disappeared. Apparently he knew his time was coming and he had wandered off. I'm not sure how long he was missing, nor do I know why there wasn't a search before this. I kept asking the police to help me find him. Either he was still alive somewhere or I needed to find his body to give him a proper burial. It was a very strange and disturbing dream - not knowing if my Dad was dead or alive, not knowing where he was. Now since waking up, I can't stop feeling the same emotions that I had in my dream. The whole "Is he out there somewher...

I wonder how many people have abandoned their New Year's resolutions already... I'll be honest here - I haven't done very well. One particular resolution, which will remain private, has been broken already. The rest of my resolutions haven't even gotten started yet. I'm giving myself a week to get started before I really start kicking myself over this. I want to post to my blog on a somewhat regular basis. This means, of course, breaking through this writer's block and coming up with interesting things to write about. This may be my most difficult resolution to keep. I want to write. I really do. I know that deep inside myself I am a writer. I just haven't been the same since I had my heart attack in 2009. It took my creativity away and I don't know how to get it back. This is why I thought I would blog. I thought this blog could be a sounding board of sorts for me.  Another resolution involves taking ALL of my meds. I am horrible at using my inhaler. I ...